Before last Saturday I had never been on a date. I've never been kissed or had a boyfriend. I only mind a little bit that I haven't had any of these experiences. I think I've missed out on a lot of pain and grief by not dating. Before last Saturday, I'd never really had a guy pursue me or even act like he was that interested in me. I was flattered that the Cop liked me so much so I went on two dates with him even though I wasn't all that interested in him. I figured it wouldn't be a bad thing to just date - I told myself it would be good practice. Little did I know that he would cross the line between going on dates and the first attempts to make a relationship so quickly.
Don't think I'm trying to say that I'm bitter about dating, because I'm not. I don't consider two dates to be enough of a catalyst for bitterness just yet. However, I have learned a lot from this awful experience. I know now, that I need to be clear to whomever I date that I want to be friends first, and let the potential relationship bloom later. I think I made a big mistake in not making that clear to the Cop this time around. What ever happened to just hanging out? How come everyone goes on dates now? I think next time I want to get to know the person first, then say, "Hey I like you and you like me, so let's go on a real date."
Anyway, it was a bad experience. I've learned from it and it's over. THANK GOD. I just can't help but hope that love will find me soon someday... and I'll feel the same way about him that he feels about me. I think we need to be clear on that.
Saw this on Post Secret today, and it struck a chord with me.
